I posted a very candid post on Instagram last week about my body positive journey I’ve been on over the past 18 months or so. Learning to love myself for who I am right now hasn’t been easy, but it’s been so good! I normally share photos of my home and how I feel about certain projects or home decor decisions, but I felt a push to be a little more vulnerable and share about a journey I’ve been on since the beginning of 2017.
My post got a bunch of comments from other women who feel the exact same way! Or they are struggling to love the body they have now. So, I wanted to share it here in case you needed a little body love encouragement, too!
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Here’s what I shared on Instagram …
So, here’s the thing. I hate a bandwagon. I kind of revolt when I see that “everybody else is doing it.” So, the fact that I’m showing you a picture of myself trying on clothes feels very strange.
But I’m trying to overcome the weirdness for a good reason.
Over the year of 2017 I made huge strides in accepting myself right where I am. In fact, I have my whole life wished I looked different, skinnier, smaller in this particular spot, less cellulite in that spot and less bulgy-ness over there. .
But I decided that I would love myself right where I was and start taking care of this body of mine just for the sake that it freakin’ houses me every moment of every day. It walks me places, lifts heavy furniture that I’ve built with these two hands and grew 2 sweet babies in my very own womb. I mean, if you stop and think about it your body is such a gift. So, I started to treat it as such.
Over the course of last year, as a part of this journey, I decided to buy clothes again. You see, I’d quit buying cute clothes because I didn’t like the way I looked. But when I looked around I saw women in my life who looked like me and looked fabulous. I wanted what they had.
So I tried on clothes and bought clothes and took back clothes if I didn’t freaking LOVE them on me. There’s no use in taking up space in my house if I don’t love it, ya know?
I branched out and decided to show up in my own skin for my own life. And I discovered along the way that you CAN feel beautiful in whatever skin you’re in. None of this, “I’ll punish myself by wearing ratty old clothes until I perform and lose this weight.” Nope. Not anymore. The weight is its own thing, not a reflection of whether I’m worthy of new, pretty clothes or not.
All of that loooooong sermon to say, I’ve found some new staples that I love and I wanted to share them with you. A lot of the women I follow in the fashion world are a size XS and 0. Not me. I’m a size 16/XL. So, if you’re wondering if what that skinny model has on will look good in your XL frame, here ya go. I won’t be turning this Instagram account over into a clothing and style space. But what I will do is share what I love. And maybe it will help you find some pieces that you love, too!
Today that is this outfit, which I stinkin’ LOVE. I tried on a bunch of clothes yesterday, but I kept coming back to this one.
Moving More & Loving It!
I wanted to elaborate that this change gave me the boost I needed to really start working out again. Isn’t it funny how when I let go of my high expectations, I could finally tackle the things I’d been wanting to tackle.
In the past I always would work out to fit into a smaller size or lose a certain amount of weight. But when I hit my goal I would stop working so hard or stop altogether. So, now I work out because of how it makes me feel! I feel strong, mentally well and physically better when I work out. I feel like I’m a better mom and wife (hello endorphins) and just FEEL so much better. When I make life choices regarding how it makes me feel and I zero in on my emotions and well-being, my new routine become a habit. I’ve consistently worked out 2-3 times every week for almost a year! Woohoo!
Have I lost any weight because of working out? Not a pound.
But I am not discouraged, because I have more energy, I don’t throw my back out anymore and I just feel better in my own skin. I can tell that I’m more toned and I even have some abs again after 2 c-sections! (Not visible abs, of course, but they are under there nonetheless!)
So do you see the switch there? I’m not saying that goals are bad. I’m a firm believer in goals. But I was living my life with this pressure of performance and how I needed to weight a certain weight or fit in a certain size in order to enjoy my life and embrace my body.
But I’ve only got one life! I don’t want to look back on my 30’s and wish I’d really lived instead of striving and trying to be something different.
I know this is different than my normal posts around here, but I hope it encourages you to embrace yourself right where you are. Buy the pretty clothes and treat yourself to something nice in whatever stage of life you find yourself in! I think you’ll enjoy showing up for your life regardless of the scale or the dress size!
Much love, Laura